Hi everybody, it may be a wordy post today as I will be answering a question leave down by a reader 😉
If you have been reading my blog, you know I was once obese before, if not you can go to the page ‘about me’ and get to know me more 😀
I reckoned i don’t need to post my old pictures as it’s all in my ‘about me’ page!
First: What actually motivates me?
– Frequent comments by friends and etc that i will definitely look better when i slim down.
– Got rejected by alot of guys during primary and secondary schools.
– Being called stupid names, e.g meatballs, balloons, fat pig, ‘dua pui kor’, king kong, hippo and etc. -.-!
I actually started exercising by playing hulahoop, at that point of time, i haven’t go on any diet.
I think it’s when i start to see results on the weighing scale, that i start to get really obsessed in losing weight.
Then i started doing fruit diet, green tea diet, (even fainting and injured my chin)
note: i did not jog or do any exercise except for hulahooping. (which i lose about 10kgs?)
Then my diet starts to go haywired, i can eat only fruits for a day, vegetables for another day, and someday i will binge. And this actually goes on for quite some time. During this period of time, my weight kept on fluctuate. (about 70+kg)
Next I happened to know about herbalife, although i lose about10kg, but i did gain back once i stopped consuming it, at this point of time, i was about 60+ kg already.
After herbalife, i tried slimming products like xando, x diet etc, but they are all gimmick!
So i decided to cut back my calories, i ate about 700-800calories a day (which is very unhealthy!) mostly consists of bread, fruit and vegetables.
After a few months of consistent dieting, i hit 49kg, and this is when i start to binge!
I ate almost 3000-4000calories everyday and i always feel like vomiting after i eat.
Which resulted in weight bouncing back to 54kg. This weight gain and loss start all over again until last year whereby my weight finally stabilized.
I don’t deny sometimes i will still feel like going on diet mode, (due to overeating) but of course not to the extent of cutting calories to a extreme anymore.
The only exercise i do now is brisk walking and I’m still keeping my weight off.
Next : What was my thoughts and feelings?
To be honest, it was really tired and depressing.
I even choose not to hang out with my friends because i dun want to eat nor see them eat. Because i’m worried I might be tempted.
everyday i will record what i eat and count the calories of food that i consumed, and if i eat too much , i will cry, yes literally, cry.
But it’s different now, I’m eating healthily, although it’s abit too late because i think my digestive system somehow already screwed.
Do not go on extreme diet my dear friends, i’ve experienced it and is facing the side effects now, i know every girl wants to be beautiful and slim, but health is very important as well.
I know sometimes it’s hard to control, you envy slim girls, you want to slim down like them, but every individual body type is different, you have your own body, you have your own character, you are special yourself. Do not compare yourself to other people. Eat healthily and exercise moderately is the key!